There are certain words that I never thought I would hear when describing me. One in particular:
Calm.
You read that right. Me, calm? Yeah, right. Only if they changed the definition in the dictionary.
I was surprised to hear it myself. I was talking with someone today and they said that they were glad I was going to be going to our clients next week with the group as I would be a calming influence on my coworkers. I was floored. I had never been described this way. And I mean NEVER.
It may take me a little time to get used to this.
It got me thinking. I used to be the mom who yelled all the time. Over everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Kids didn't pick up their rooms? I yelled. Kids weren't ready for school? I yelled. I had turned into a cranky mom. And I didn't want to be that way.
It got me thinking. I used to be the mom who yelled all the time. Over everything. And I mean EVERYTHING. Kids didn't pick up their rooms? I yelled. Kids weren't ready for school? I yelled. I had turned into a cranky mom. And I didn't want to be that way.
Now? I still get cranky but I realize that I don't yell much anymore. Am I really calmer? What caused the change? I would like to say that I had an epiphany and made a decision but I think it was a gradual change.
So what happened? I just stopped being so concerned about the little things. Son wanted to go to school in January only wearing a sweatshirt? He will be the one cold, not me. Their room is dirty? They are on another floor and I don't have to see it.
Now, when I do have to yell, it means something. Just ask my son. He will tell you. I can still bellow with the best of them.
My yelling was becoming the norm and they shut me out. I was just background noise.
Now, when I do have to yell, it means something. Just ask my son. He will tell you. I can still bellow with the best of them.
My yelling was becoming the norm and they shut me out. I was just background noise.
So, yes. I am calm. I will live it, embrace it and love it.
